Milkiaa Moo

(Another heads up for my family members... This is the saucy post...) After High School I still thought I was bisexual as I still found men attractive and fantasied about them, I would look at a guy and think "Ooo I wouldn't mind a piece of that." Not deeping that that didn't mean what I thought it meant , it was just a flippant comment... I had to learn that from experience. When it came to guys and sex I thought "Yes! I've fantasied about being with guys, I feel giggly from the attention and conversions had with guys, I have this intense chemistry with guys, I don't feel cringed out about the thought of having sex with a guy so I must be bisexual."   Whilst I was getting saucy with this one guy, I was thinking "You're bisexual, y ou find him attractive, give it some time, you're bound to like start enjoying it any... minute... now! No? Okay, give it a little longer, see how far you can go until you know for sure that it's a...

As the years went by in Primary School I started making more friends and began to hear conversations about crushes on boys, boyfriends and all that jazz. When it came to me asking questions about this topic I always asked about boy and girl relationships and crushes and the dynamics between the opposite gender, I never thought to mention girls possibly liking girls  even though I basically had a crush on the majority of the girls I was friends with and a few girls in the years above me... Maybe a little more than a few... At the time I never actually knew that what I thought and felt about girls was called having a crush, I genuinely thought a crush was exclusively between the opposite genders due to never seeing or hearing otherwise in school, at home, on TV or anywhere else, so being oblivious to it allowed my... unique way of thinking to come up with my own two theories when I was 9 years old...  Either I thought and felt a type of way about girls and it was a nor...

You guys... I had so many childhood girl crushes I didn't know I was actually crushing on at the time. I remember watching TV shows and movies in the frontroom with my family and there being girls and women that my eyes would be stuck on and I would legit be smiling like a pleb whenever they came up on screen. Have any one of yous watched either one of these  Atlantis  films? These two films were my favourites for so many reasons but let me not going into that because that would turn into a long ass essay.  If you haven't heard of either of these Atlantis movies basically there's two characters I  loved so much, the first character was Kida. I actually still love her lol. The first time I watched  Atlantis  and saw Kida I was like "Oooooo" and stayed fixated on her whenever she was on the screen, I loved everything about her character, she was this confident, compassionate, spiritual Princess. I can admit that I watched both of these movi...

I'm finally back with a 4-part blog post... Is that the right way to explain what I'm doing? I'm basically going to be publishing 4 posts. This post is the first part, I'll be posting part 2 tomorrow, part 3 will be up the day after tomorrow and part 4 would be up the day after the day after tomorrow lol. (I don't know why this paragraph has decided to center itself...) These four post are on the subject of how I grew up and came to realise and accept that I'm gay asf, basically the  thoughts, feelings and experiences I've had over the past 13 years. I actually thought my memory was trash so I surprised myself with how much I remembered and how I remembered everything so clearly... Ooo, wait before I start I have to give any family members that are reading this a little heads up... Umm... This 4-part post begins to gets a little bit saucy in part 3 and part 4... Not extremely saucy but maybe just enough for you to cringe... If you read thi...